We like to hide things away in the corners of our lives. We may not think of ourselves as boasters, but we often only talk about things we are happy about, that we are proud of. We segregate our lives so that if anyone should cross into another section, we become unnatural, and for me at least, it becomes an extra thing to communicate. We have to orientate our friend to their new surroundings and the people in them, when it would be easier to keep everyone in the pre-ordained structure where they belong.
Thus said, we are also embarrassed about little flaws, and things that if people find out we do, will they still like us? Knowing that people love us is the hardest thing to accept. God loves us, cares for us, and, so I'm led to believe, even likes us. But accepting this is so hard. Admitting to Him, even though he sees our lives, the things that we hide away is hard. Being the person he created us to be, and even the person we enjoy being is hard when we worry what others will make of us.
From the very beginning of humanity, we have hidden in the corners of the world. Adam and Eve hid from God as he walked in the garden and as he called for them they hid and created coverings for the places which we 'treat with special dignity'. Cain killed Abel and then denied knowing where he was when asked by God. Abraham called Sarah his sister that he might not be killed for having a beautiful wife whom Pharaoh might desire too.
All these people did not trust God for their salvation, they tried to trusted themselves. Adam and Eve did not confront the serpent with the word of God as a powerful fact, were wooed by doubts. They tried to buy their way out of it by covering themselves, by blaming others. Cain did not trust that God had accepted his brother's sacrifice and therefore change, learning to give God his best. No. He let his anger to get the better of him, and to act on his own accord to deal with his brother's righteousness. Abraham did not 'man up' and protect his wife from Pharaoh's advances even if it would mean death. He literally gave Pharaoh a free reign in order to protect himself.
All these people and more were more embarrassed about the truth than concerned with keeping it.
I will state now, that I am no better.
'If we say that we have fellowship with him while we are walking in darkness, we lie and do not do what is true; but if we walk in the light as he himself is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin.' (1 John 1:6-7)
